At 1:30 am this morning (Feb 7) Dan's mom called us and told us that our niece Savannah Jean had passed away from a brain bleed. Savannah and her twin Kaleb Ernest were born on February 5. Dan and I are still in complete disbelief. We visited Kevin, Laura, Savannah, and Kaleb yesterday. All the nurses were very positive and the babies were doing great considering that they were born at 26 weeks and roughly 2 pounds each. That's the thing about preemies and life in general, things can change in an instant.
I didn't want the sun to come up today. I thought that just maybe if the sun didn't come up, we didn't have to acknowledge Savannah's death. I woke up early and made some coffee, and then I watched the sunrise. It was a beautiful sunrise. I cried as it got light outside because it meant that all of it was true, that it wasn't just a bad dream. I didn't cry for me. I cried for Kevin and Laura. They are the two most deserving, loving, kind parents I know. The BEST parents. And for some reason God takes their children away too soon. It didn't make sense 5 years ago when He took Kaden, and it still doesn't make sense today as He whispered Savannah's name. I'm asking a lot of "whys" today. Why can't things be easier for Kevin and Laura? Why did Lorena make it and not Savannah? Why does God make good people go through horrible things?
It's hard to be too mad at God today, we still have Kaleb on this Earth. Saw this post on Kevin's Facebook wall early this morning. I know God is a good and faithful God, that He doesn't make mistakes, and there is a divine plan for each and everyone of us. I know Kevin and Laura have been a light for so many people. I just wish it didn't have to be this way. Please please please take a moment and pray for Kaleb, that he continues to be strong, and continues to grow in the NICU. Also please pray for strength for Kevin and Laura.
