Ernie's Truck

It's been hard to know what to say to the girls about Ernie's death.  They loved their grandpa Ernie but they are still very young.  I've been conflicted on whether or not to talk about him.  As each day passes, I worry that the girls will forget about him.  But I also don't want to bring up his name because I don't want the girls to cry and say they want to see Grandpa Ernie.  Ida still doesn't talk much but she can recognize his picture.  Lorena can talk about him and does ask a few questions.

So after some thinking, I've decided that I don't want the girls to forget him.  I'm going to talk about him everyday.  Today when I put the girls in their car seats I reminded them that Grandpa went to Heaven and is with Savannah and Kaden.  Lorena shook her head up and down and said "Yep."  Ernie's pickup truck is still parked in our machine shed.  As we drove by his truck this morning Lorena said, "Grandpa doesn't need his truck anymore."  I smiled and said "Yep that's right Lorena."

My dream for the girls is to never have any heartache or pain, but I've come to realize that this isn't reality.  The night of the accident I remember Cindy saying that "Life is hard, and that it gets harder as you get older."  It took me a while to comprehend that but I think she's right. Yes, I'm agreeing with my mother in law on something.

Life is hard here on Earth.  There's pain, sickness, sorrow, jealousy, evil, and sin that surround us everyday of the week.  I'm almost 32 and have been a Christian my whole life but I'm finally starting to think about why we are really here on Earth.  The goal is to get to Heaven.  A place with no suffering!  It sure would be sad if all we had was this earthly life.  There MUST be something more than this!  Thankfully as Christians, it's very reassuring to know that there is something more.  And Lorena's right, Ernie doesn't need his dirty old truck anymore.

Blessings ~ Lydia